I didn't spend on one of my credit cards for almost a year, the raised my limit by $1000, Bay area FasTrak gives me like $5/mo to come back to SF, Netflix just gave me two free months because I canceled in June-I wonder if I ignore Ryan Gosling more often it will have the same effect.
I have been ignoring him, Jake Gyllenhaal, Colin Farrell, etc.. for years now-come on boys! ;p
I mean, seems like the more you ignore something, the more it comes to you...right? Is all of life like a bad boyfriend? I gave up TV writing last summer to work on my YA book series, and BOOM! TV writing job falls in my lap. I give up looking for work and jobs come out of the wood work. It's really interesting how things like this happen.
I swear I am now getting credit increases left, right and center because I am not spending-shouldn't it be the other way around? I mean the reason I am not using your credit card is one of two reasons, 1) I can't afford it and 2) (The more likely reason) there is nothing in your store that I want to buy-get some new inventory and thanks for the bump.
So do I dare try this theory out on men, say Ryan Gosling-I only use him because I just met him 2x at Starbucks-maybe he is stalking me!! Hahahaha totally kidding, but you get the point.
I can't do this though when it comes to real life, if I like someone enough to take away from my busy schedule it's because I like them, I can't play the game, even though I know it seems to work-for everything. That said, if I take time to talk to someone it's because I like them, if I am ignoring someone it's because I don't want to talk to them-but this whole phenomenon is of course just interesting to me.
So what else do I want in life? Hrm???
This reminds me of that line from French Kiss.
"Happy-smile. Sad-frown. Use the corresponding face for the corresponding emotion."
But it seems the more you turn away from something the more it wants you.
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Sunday, November 4, 2012
I woke up today ready to dive into a new chapter of the year falling back into the proper standard time Starbucks in hand and then WHAM! I log into FB and see that my friend Laurie has died. ALL day I have been in a state of shock, anger, WHAT THE FUCK?, sadness, grief, disbelief and then all over. What happened? Why? Why? I want to know why? How did this happen? She died from Cervical cancer. WHAT? In 2012? WHAT? How? Laurie!!!!!!! Didn't you get check ups? How could this happen? I didn't talk to her every day, but we were good friends and we did talk a lot about writing. We met in 2009 at the Santa Monica Write On Online group and became instant friends. She was great, full of life, and I am just so upset about this. I know her closer friends and family are even more devastated than I am, but it's just so awful. My father died in June, so I have been terrible about keeping up with everyone on FB, but I remember her posting something about her stomach not feeling right this summer, is that how she found out? I don't understand. Sucks being healthy and watching so many people die and excuse me, I am not even old yet. Is life supposed to be like this? So what do I do? Never become close to anyone so I don't have to be smashed down when they die? Of course not, but seriously? I have lost several friends in the past few years, and lots of family, and I just feel like I can't take anymore loss-it's so hard to say goodbye. That said, this isn't about me, it's about Laurie and I am so saddened, and in shock. I hope that she knows how loved she was and I hope that her family knows how loved she was and I hope she is happy wherever she is. Rest in peace my dear friend.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
You have heard the expression-thinking with your dick-right? Not just for men anymore. Us women definitely let the "little" brain take over. There isn't a good way to say it for women, and it's the same thing. I am going to try to never let this happen again-yeah right, right? Right. Okay, so you meet someone and you are attracted to them-that is human nature and what if the Mayans were right? Who I am to deny myself a basic human right just because the wrong brain is leading me? Okay because it always causes trouble? And can make a mess of things? Yeah well...so can other things that aren't as much fun. Just saying, my little brain is sometimes wiser than my big one!