When I was working late in 2007 and heard the news about a British student murdered in Italy, I couldn't watch it, because it was so graphic and horrifying that it scared me too much, but then in the daylight hours I became intrigued. My interest faded quickly as my own life was in a constant state of chaos with the WGA strike and work uncertain. I soon forgot all about Amanda Knox and Meredith Kercher.
For the past four years I have heard stories about it and until last week, I was 100% convinced that Amanda had some part in the killing of her roommate.
My conclusions were based on this:
The way she reacted after, the fact that she lied so many times, the way she reacted, and the media, and the way she reacted...my dad always said, believe NONE of what you hear and HALF of what you see.
I believed what was said about her and I know better so for that I am ashamed.
First off all, who can say how someone is going to react when they find their roommate dead? Especially after a night of "smoking out" with a new boyfriend. Pot is a weird drug and everyone is different on it, and the fact that she was stoned could definitely play on the way she handled that first 24-30 hours.
There is no rule saying she had to act a certain way.
As well shock hits people in different ways.
Also when I was in Italy, I couldn't order a coffee or dessert without saying something completely different-she was interrogated in Italian-not English. That means something.
I condemned her because I heard she had acted a certain way that I thought was crazy.
Then the media painted her in a certain way and I bought it, which I believe now was wrong.
The science is the science and there is no way she could have removed just her DNA. Come on people.
I am not sure if she is innocent or not. I hope she is, and I believe now that she did not kill Meredith. Maybe she was involved, maybe she wasn't-that said I would rather see a guilty person go free than an innocent one suffer in jail.
My own brother was murdered, so trust me, I know how the Kercher family feels in some ways, but putting Amanda away, guilty or not will not bring Meredith back. It is beyond tragic what happened and I think the world's attention was caught because it could happen to anyone, or anyone's kids.
Today in Seattle-where I am living for another week-the city welcomed a visibly worn out Amanda home. There were signs all over the city for her and it was nice to see a community coming together in support of this young girl.
I hope that she finds some peace and I hope that if she does get a huge payout to interview or whatever, that she will lend a hand in finding the real killer-unless he is already in jail.
To Amanda Knox, I raise my glass to you and welcome you back-and I really hope all the families involved can find peace at the end of four long years.