Wednesday, November 25, 2009
There Is Hope
I have been going over and over and over what happened and can't make sense of it. I know the stats, I saw the film, I have read tons about this bridge, but it still sucks. I talked to her and I couldn't help her. I hope she is okay where ever she is now. I hope that it didn't hurt too much when her body slammed into the icy water 245 feet below. I wish that she had considered for a moment that her life did matter.
I had posted all over one of my Facebook profiles, but took it all off today. I am pretty messed up about it and think that I needed to talk, or type, or whatever. I am having nightmares and wonder if this is how people feel when they lose a stranger all the time. Is there always such an overwhelming feeling of guilt?
I went to the spot (79) that she was standing and ultimately jumped from today and it felt cold and dark even though the sun was shining bright.
It is so sad that people do this all the time and I hope that someday I can make a difference for someone else, because I didn't for her.